Since turning thirty, I have learned a lot about myself. Like a lot. But this past year, my 31st year, was definitely a year of eye opening revelations. I’ve become quite aware of who I am, what I like, what I don’t like, what I want, what I don’t want. Honestly, it’s kind of strange to think back on it all.
I have learned just how self aware I really am. Maybe to a fault. I’ve learned that I care and worry way too much about how I make other people feel and not enough about how I feel. I’ve learned that I am a people pleaser and say sorry way too often. That putting yourself out there really isn’t that scary and that it is totally worth it.
I learned friendships cannot be forced and that talking through arguments with your spouse is truly the only way to move forward. I’ve learned that I need to stop letting other people’s behaviors/emotions affect how I feel. I learned that no matter how much I despise the word “anxiety”, it still affects me. That while working out is still a chore, it really does wonders for your mood, mindset and confidence.
I realized just how scared I am to have children and how future focused I really am. I’ve learned that no matter how often or how much I compare myself to others, I am only ever going to be me. Most importantly though, I’ve learned that I am in full control of my own happiness.
My thirties, in only two years, have been incredibly eye opening. As I approach 32 (on Sunday!), I wanted to share what my 30s have been like so far and why they have been some of my favorite years so far.
Approaching My 30s
When I was approaching 30, I wasn’t really sure where I thought I would be. I just knew I wasn’t there. It made me uncomfortable and unsatisfied to feel that way. As I mentioned above, I have a very future focused mindset, but looking back I had never put much thought into what I wanted my future to look like. I tend to worry more about it than I do planning it. I’m not really sure when my mindset changed, but I eventually decided it was time to work on being comfortable and satisfied with where I was/am, but still work towards what I was learning I really wanted.
Entering My 30s
It’s weird to feel yourself changing, but I think that is what your thirties are all about. I swear, as soon as I entered my thirties I was feeling more myself than I ever had before. It was the year I really started to learn about myself. Or at least, I was making it a point to learn more about myself.
When you enter your thirties, I believe you really do start to care less about what other people think. By caring less, you focus on yourself more. You start to pay attention to how you really feel and how you can make yourself feel even better. Your health becomes more of a priority. You begin to think about major life events and what you really want out of life.
First Year in My 30s
While thirty was the year I spent a lot of time trying to figure myself out, what I wanted, where I wanted to be and what I wanted to do, thirty one was the year I really took it all to heart.
All those things I learned that I mentioned above have made this year a major growth year for me. I really wanted to start paying attention to who I was. Not who I thought I was or who I wanted to be. By doing that, I’ve become so much more confident in who I am and where I am going. I’m excited and motivated all while being satisfied with where I am at.
I still worry about the future too much and overthink pretty much everything (ha!), but at the end of the day, I am learning to process it and to work with it. Thirty one was a really good year. Not because I got to go on amazing trips or because any major life event happened for me, but because more than ever I feel happy with who I am and happy with where I am at.
I have no doubt that 32 is going to a great year of even more growth, more opportunity and more happiness. While I never thought I’d say this, I truly am excited to turn another year older!